there is a statement that is often said in relation to a situation...a girl who has had enough in a relationship, a disgruntled employee who has been slighted, an athlete who comes in second, a recovering addict trying to get clean, a singer who auditions but doesn't make the cut, a patient fighting a terrible disease...the statement is this: "you're not going to get the best of me." or, "i'm not going to let it get the best of me." used in this way, the statement is usually about moving on, letting go, accepting, turning the page, etc.
i was thinking about this statement in relation to my current situation. true, i can quickly and easily say to cancer, "you're not going to get the best of me," or to someone that i'm not going to let cancer get the best of me, but you know what? that's not really where i am. in fact, when i think about that statement, it better suits my journey and my headspace to say that cancer is going to get the best of me.
what do i mean?
well, basically, acute myeloid leukemia is going to get the best of me :-)
and i say that with as much defiance and determination as you can imagine.
i am finding that my fight against cancer is as much a psychological battle as it is a physical one. there's a strength that comes from being positive. in many ways, half the battle is in the mind. by the time i received my diagnosis, only days after being admitted, i actually breathed a sigh of relief because after days of tests and 'the unknown,' the 'it' finally had a name. and you can often treat something with a name. the night i got my diagnosis i decided with every fibre of my being that i was going to give leukemia a run for its money.
cancer is getting the best of me.
that doesn't mean i have given up. or that i have resigned myself to an unfightable fate. or that i just don't have it in me.
au contraire. it means i have my boxing gloves on and have come out swinging. i'm not cowering in the corner of the ring. cancer is down for the count.
cancer is getting the best of me. my best effort. my best fight. my best attempt. my best swing. my best start off the line.
i believe i am doing so well on my journey and in this fight because i made up my mind that the cancer cells that once threatened to take over my body are now being schooled by me. i am showing them who's boss. am i doing it on my own? no. i believe emphatically that this journey is going so well because i have soooo much spiritual and medical support systems at my disposal, and because i served notice on cancer, letting it know that it wasn't going to win. i let it know every day that i am in the constant motion of putting my best foot forward. every day i determine to deliver a fatal blow to leukemia...a tko, if you will :-) in other words, leukemia is facing a technical knockout from me and my support systems; cancer cannot safely continue in this match. the odds are stacked against it, and are ever in my favour.
pat benatar sang it this way: "well, you're a real tough cookie with the long history of breaking little hearts like the one in me. that's ok. let's see how you do it. put up your dukes. let's get down to it! hit me with your best shot! why don't you hit me with your best shot! hit me with your best shot! fire away! you come on with a come on. you don't fight fair. but that's ok. see if i care! knock me down. it's all in vain. i'll get right back on my feet again."
and that's my daily challenge to cancer. and it should be your challenge to whatever you're facing. go ahead, cancer. gimme all you got. take your best shot, problem. it may be well be your last.
:-)
"we don't see things as they are. we see things as we are."--anaïs nin. like the title indicates, this blog's a place where i write about my various points of view, seen through the lens of me--largely inspired by faith, family, friends...real life, basically... i invite you to read what i have to say and say something back. feedback and constructive criticism are always welcome here!
2/08/2013
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
"popular posts" suite
-
"God knows the way i take" (job 23:10). you know that thing you know you should do but you never do? yeah... that thing...i'...
-
yesterday hollie and i went for the results of my last bone marrow test, six months plus a day after my diagnosis. for reasons i don't g...
-
"God goes before me and He follows me" (ps. 139:5). my life's journey took an unexpected but totally planned and not unguide...
-
"my times are in God's hand" (ps. 31:15). i wasn't at the oakville trafalgar hospital long. dr. lee said they were trans...
-
the other day i had to accomplish what seemed to be a daunting task. thinking about it the night before i knew i had to do it, and then agai...
-
there is a statement that is often said in relation to a situation...a girl who has had enough in a relationship, a disgruntled employee who...
-
i was admitted to the world renown juravinski cancer centre on oct. 24 after having my first bone marrow test the day before at the oakvil...
-
"if God sends you down a stony path, He will give you strong shoes." in our own ways, we are all on a stony path of some sort...
-
today is january 28, 2013. so far i have undergone 3 intense rounds of chemo: a week at the end of october, 5 days in december, and 5 days i...
-
6 months ago today, on october 17th, my journey took an unexpected turn...one i never saw coming...one that would change my life forever. i ...
"ordered observations, outposts, and overtures" suite
-
►
2010
(13)
- ► January 2010 (6)
- ► February 2010 (3)
- ► December 2010 (4)
-
►
2011
(25)
- ► January 2011 (3)
- ► February 2011 (7)
- ► March 2011 (3)
- ► April 2011 (3)
-
►
2012
(8)
- ► March 2012 (1)
- ► November 2012 (3)
- ► December 2012 (4)
-
▼
2013
(10)
- ► January 2013 (2)
- ► April 2013 (4)
- ► August 2013 (1)
"stewart" suite--a bit about me
- t-lstewart
- here, there, everywhere, Canada
- blogger, cancer fighter, cbc-er, cleaner, daughter, doer, dog lover, iphone lover, ipod updater, leukemia fighter, listener, loner, organizer, reader, road tripper, sharer, singer, sister, surfer, texter, thinker, watcher, writer, worker
Anne Marie Chamberlain Robinson. said:
ReplyDeleteTeri Lyn, you are sooo encouraging. Praying with ya! Cancer doesn't stand a chance! :-)
Michelle Emmett Palmer said:
ReplyDeleteexcellent. I am going to "borrow" the quote you use in your blog description, it spoke loudly to me today! Praying for you continually. Sorry you never received my card...maybe it'll show up yet.
Maureen Hood said:
ReplyDeleteYour best shot! You're giving it back! Go Teri-Lyn!!!!
Jennifer VanHorne McKay said:
ReplyDeleteGirl you ROCK and are truly an inspiration!! Cancer doesn't stand a chance against you.
Teri-Lyn,
ReplyDeleteYou are one incredible Lady!! I read some where "you can't be a smart cookie if you have a crummy attitude" Your attitude is awesome & that makes you a smart cookie!!! Praying for you!!!
GGT! GGT! ggt! Ggt! GGt! Got it? GOD'S GOT THIS!!!!
ReplyDeleteY*E*S!!!!